Let go...

Hi all, I have been away from my blogging life for a while. I have been wanting to write about different things but every time I sit down to write life happens... as it does everyday. Home, kids, work, studies etc etc....

Anyways finally found this window to quickly get some stuff in writing lol. Over the past few years, since I had my first baby, my life had changed a lot. And I am not talking about the obvious changes that happen when you have kids. I am talking about self realisation, growth and how strong having kids have made me. 

Having kids has taught me so many things that you can't learn from books or anything else. I am not saying I am a prefect mom however I have perfect kids to teach me to be perfect mom for them. Having kids triggered a lot of memories and how my parenting style is so different from my parents. 

I have also noticed how my parenting style is formed based on my childhood. It amazes me that sometimes my decisions are based on how I felt when my parents said something rather than thinking how it will affect my kids. However as I said I am not perfect and lately I am trying to let go of my childhood mental blocks and trying to do what I think will make kids better at understanding life around them. Don't get me wrong my parents have done a fantastic job raising us. 

To conclude this really confusing and mixed feeling post, I think becoming a parent makes you realise that you just got to go with your gut when it comes to your kids. There is no book or manual that can teach you to be a parent. It's the bond between you and your child that will guide the relationship in the right direction. Just be there, be present and love unconditionally, everything else will happen itself.